Posted by: John | June 20, 2012

Twenty Years

Yesterday I visited the black granite monument behind the gazebo in Great Neck Park. It’s there in memory of the June 19, 1992 Navy helicopter crash that took the lives of seven aircrew men including Ken Steen, a dear friend and student of mine.  His widow, Joanne, has transformed her personal tragedy into grief-work benefiting all the military and their families.  Always a hero of mine, I remember her saying once, “Life goes on, one way or another.”

Life has gone on for me in the past twenty years.  I earned my MA in English in 1995 and now work as an adjunct assistant professor for Embry-Riddle Aeronautical University.  The helicopter crash was the subject of one of my papers while in graduate school.  Although I’m almost deaf, I still hear well enough to teach and fly, and to want to get out of bed in the morning.

I’m now an ostomate, having lost my colon to ulcerative colitis in 2000.  After the surgery, I spent one month in the hospital and another month-and-a-half at home recuperating.  I was told I had a 50/50 chance of survival.  Now I lead an active life that includes the practice of yoga.  Last night I attended a monthly meeting of our local Ostomy Support Group.

In 2007 I watched a glider student of mine crash in a corn field.  Fortunately he was not hurt, but the incident forced me to look at my whole attitude toward flying and giving flight instruction.

Last year I married “the woman that might have loved me I never knew,” as the Eagles sing in “Take It to the Limit.”  Lisa is everything I ever wanted in a woman, and she loves me.  She’s also my yoga teacher.

I’ve been starting my day with prayer and seated meditation for over two years.  In January of this year I watched a close friend die of cancer.

I still fly, and will fly, as long as pastel sunset cirrus clouds highlighted by a full moonrise take my breath away at 3,000 feet.

Lisa’s smile that would disarm the devil breathes life back into me during our walks and talks on the beach.

Yes, life goes on.

Posted by: Jivani Lisa | June 18, 2012

Consecrated to God

The Lord invited me to be His bride – as I believe He invites everyone – a long time ago, prior to my life in this body.  I said yes to Him a long time ago.  Indeed, I sense I’ve been consecrated to Him for many lives.  My error has been in thinking I must live a certain kind of life (a nun in a monastery/hermitage), or be a member of a particular church (the Catholic Church), or wear special clothing (a religious habit) to be His bride.

However, the truth is that I am His – regardless of externals.  It doesn’t matter that I’m married or that I work in a gym, because I belong to Him first.  I am in this life to do the work that needs to be done.  My first wish is to always love Him and serve Him.

My second wish is that everyone will love Him and serve Him.  Together, we can make this earth a little more like heaven.

Posted by: Jivani Lisa | June 16, 2012

“One Lovely Blog”

We’re happy to announce we’ve received a “One Lovely Blog Award” from one of our faithful followers, lazyhippiemama.  Her fun, insightful posts are about “One Woman’s attempt to save the earth, promote world peace and raise productive citizens without expending too much effort.”  Check her out!

A condition of accepting this award is that we must tell you seven things about us that you probably don’t already know.  So here goes:

1)  My favorite musical groups are Styx, The Eagles and Fleetwood Mac, in that order.  John also loves The Eagles – which is one of the things that brought us together when he saw me singing and jammin’ to “One of These Nights.”

2)  In 1997-98, I suffered from severe anorexia nervosa and bulimia nervosa.  At my lowest, I weighed 83 pounds.  Once (only once), I spent a night throwing up after drinking an entire bottle of syrup of ipecac.

3)  When John was fifteen, he memorized the Sermon on the Mount and recited it in front of the congregation at his church.  His mother thought for sure he’d grow up to be a preacher.

4)  I have a beautiful 15-year-old daughter who makes the honor roll every semester, sings in the church choir, plays the viola, takes my yoga classes – and still somehow finds time for a social life.

5)  John is an Eagle Scout.  He says “was.”  I asked:  “Once you’re an Eagle Scout, aren’t you always an Eagle Scout?”  He said, “I don’t know.”  Okay, I say he’s an Eagle Scout.

6)  In 1995, I swam with dolphins at a resort on the Big Island of Hawaii.  It was an awesome experience!

7)  My first husband and I were members of a nudist resort in Virginia called White Tail Park (now White Tail Resort).  We even had a permanent camp site where we kept our camper set up year-round.  Fun times!  There’s nothing like swimming and walking around outside in the nude.

And we’re pleased to pass this award along (another condition of acceptance) to the following blogs that we enjoy:

Shanti Shift Yoga – Peaceful transitions, on the mat and in life.

Only Yes – Co-founder of the Community of Solitude, Brother Leo is an urban monk, married and father of two boys.  He blogs  frequently on the intersection of psychology, neuroscience, monasticism…and life.

Graces of Discipline – Susi Robinson Rutz writes on the topic of Spiritual Direction.

Exceptionally Ordinary, One Day at a Time – Quina Baterna is a Freshman at the Ateneo de Manila University.  She’s a new blogger whose interests include sleeping, reading, eating, praising God, having random adventures, trying out new things, and blogging about them.

Posted by: Jivani Lisa | June 13, 2012

Only You

You are my God!
I exist suspended–
between heaven and earth.

Creation praises You,
each form in its way.
Can You hear my heart?

My longing knows no bounds!
You give precious gifts,
but all I want is You.

Posted by: Jivani Lisa | June 12, 2012

Prayer for God’s Light

Lord God, I desire Your Light, Your Truth, Your Love – but I fear that the darkness is too much for me.  This world is dark; my soul is dark.

In this life, we are surrounded and filled with confusion, uncertainty, chaos.  Things are not what they seem.  There is terror everywhere.  Lord, have mercy on us!  Free us from our self-designed imprisonment, open our eyes, take away every obstacle that keeps us from You.  We want only You – even when we think we want other things.  Lord, please console us in our misery.  Take away our sense of terror that paralyzes us.  Increase our faith that You are always with us, guiding us by Your never-failing Light.  Amen.  AUM

Posted by: Jivani Lisa | June 11, 2012

Prayer for Every Day

Dear Lord, I know You have created our souls to be espoused only to You.  We love You; we praise You!  Show us how to live always united to You in the temple of our hearts.  Cure us of our addictions to the fleeting pleasures of this world.  Help us stay committed to union with You regardless of where our bodies may be living or what we may be doing on this earth.  We thank You for all Your gifts, but we acknowledge that we only truly desire You.  Hear our prayers and bless all Your children everywhere.  Amen!  AUM

Posted by: Jivani Lisa | June 8, 2012

Catholic Fundamentalists

Apparently, the Pope believes (and desires) the Catholic Church will undergo “a pruning” before moving into a phase of incredible growth.  Folks who don’t agree with the teachings and dogmas are expected to either conform or get out (and rot in hell).  Once the Church is pruned of “progressives,” “liberals,” and “rebels” – including the “rogue” nuns –  it will be made up of nothing but ultra-conservatives.  This has been the Pope’s true intention for years.

These ultra-conservative Catholics (who will be the only true “Catholics”) then expect to convert many people to their religion.  The Catholic Church will be just another fundamentalist religion.  For now, the only thing keeping it from fundamentalism is the “progressives, liberals and rebels.”

Just what the world needs, huh?  More fundamentalists.  More people who are convinced that their way is the only way, who are committed to forcing their way on others, who are prepared to die (become martyrs) for their beliefs.

When will humanity learn the important lesson that creating more divisions and distinctions is not the answer to our problems?  The Catholic Church doesn’t seem to understand it’s moving in the wrong direction.  Salvation is found in striving for unity, peace, understanding and compassion.

It’s not too late.  Let us pray….

Posted by: John | June 6, 2012

Perspective

Yesterday I finished reading the book, Helter Skelter: The True Story of the Manson Murders.  Lisa and I ate dinner at the Ocean View Fishing Pier.  Today is the sixty-eighth anniversary of D-Day.  I saw on CNN today the Vatican thinks some U.S. Nuns are rogue.  While all this was happening, the planet Venus made its journey across the face of the sun.  That won’t happen again till 2117.

Posted by: Jivani Lisa | May 22, 2012

Where is the Love?

“Anyone who claims to be in the light but hates his brother is still in the darkness.  Whoever loves his brother lives in the light, and there is nothing in him to make him stumble.  But whoever hates his brother is in the darkness and walks around in the darkness; he does not know where he is going because the darkness has blinded him.”  (1 John 2:9-11)

“If anyone says, ‘I love God,’ yet hates his brother, he is a liar.  For anyone who does not love his brother, whom he has seen, cannot love God, whom he has not seen.”  (1 John 4:20)

“Hatred will not cease by hatred, but by love alone.”  (Gautama Buddha)

I’m so tired of all the hatred.  It’s everywhere – and it seems to be getting worse.  It’s especially troublesome in people who should know better:  Republicans (God lovers?) hating Democrats; Christians (God lovers?) hating Muslims, gays, women, etc.

When will we all learn that hatred, judgement and condemnation of others can never bring us peace, happiness and joy?  Only love begets love.

This doesn’t mean we will ever agree on all things.  We’re meant to have our differences – but we’re also meant to be respectful and compassionate, regardless of the differences.

We can do our part to end hatred, yelling and fighting by refusing to be pulled into such negative energy.  If we cannot share love, let us at least remain silent.

Posted by: Jivani Lisa | May 8, 2012

We Are Co-Creators

“God created man in His image; in the divine image He created him; male and female he created them.  God looked at everything He had made, and He found it very good.” (Genesis 1:27, 31a)

In the creation story of Genesis, Chapter 1, we see God creating everything – and specifically creating human beings in His own image.  I don’t think it’s possible to ever pin down exactly what God’s image is, because God is beyond all human concepts and descriptions.  (God doesn’t have gender, either, so we just use the word “He” out of convenience – see my post “Conceiving of God“).

However, in this story, we see God as the Creator.  Since we are made in His/Her image, we are all creators, too – co-creators with God.

God sees everything He/She creates as “good” and “very good.”  Therefore, we are meant to create things that are good (rather than harmful or selfish).

Some women feel called to create children or prepare wholesome family meals.  I spend my days creating uplifting yoga experiences for my students, a loving home for my husband, and poems or blog posts to inspire readers.

There are so many opportunities for us to be co-creators with God each day.  Doing so helps us live up to the image of God that is our blueprint.  What types of “good” things do you enjoy creating?

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