Posted by: John | February 2, 2011

Knowing

Left brain, right brain —

      The name of the game is still the same.

Find someone else to blame.

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At this point in my existence I feel I’ve squandered my subsistence thru my continual resistance to my fellow man’s insistence of some sort of pittance.

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There is an ebb.  There is a flow.

What we feel and what we know.

Sometimes we come, sometimes we go.

We don’t always let it show.

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Subtlety is an entity renowned for its mystery.

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If there’s only black and white, we’ll always fuss and fight.

        Dawn comes before day and dusk before night.

There’s seldom only wrong or right.

Posted by: Jivani Lisa | January 27, 2011

Heavenly Baseball

When I was little, I spent lots of time with my grandparents.  I often spent nights at their home.  My grandmother was like a mother to me.  Since I slept in her bed at night, I observed her nightly routine which included mumbling something under her breath as she turned down the blankets.  I couldn’t understand what she was saying, and for some reason, I thought I shouldn’t intrude on her by asking about her moving lips.

One evening, feeling bold, I asked her what she was saying.  She answered, “The Lord’s Prayer.”  I then asked her to say it out loud so I could hear.  I was impressed by this beautiful prayer and the devotion with which my grandmother spoke it.  In the morning, she gave me a bookmark with the Lord’s Prayer printed on it.  I immediately began working to memorize it.

I also remember sitting on the floor in the living room playing with my dolls or coloring with pencils and crayons while grandmother sat in her chair listening to the portable radio.  I liked the radio in the soft, brown, leather case.  Grandmother listened to baseball games on the radio – always the Detroit Tigers.  Who else, since we lived in the Detroit area!

As I played, I listened to the baseball games, too.  I liked the announcer’s smooth, deep voice.  Mostly, he sounded quite calm but sometimes he became excited.  Grandmother sat quietly but sometimes she gave out a yell or clapped her hands.  This was a complete mystery to me.  Since I had no idea what a baseball game was, I had no way of understanding the sounds on the radio, the descriptions given by the announcer.  I didn’t understand why grandmother was sometimes very excited and other times, very upset.  I listened with a combination of curiosity and bewilderment.

One day when the television was on, I recognized the sounds of the radio baseball game.  I stopped and stared.  So THIS was what I’d been hearing on the radio!  Now, I could see the bat striking the ball; I could see the players, the umpire and even the announcer.  Baseball came alive for me.  Finally, I had a truer experience of an actual game.  The unknown sounds and actions became clear to me.  I gained understanding.

Spiritual experiences are like that baseball game.  It’s possible to read about them and listen to people describe them over and over without really understanding.  We might gain a kind of intellectual knowledge – but nothing can compare to the real thing.  Our own spiritual experiences will makes sense to us even if we have no way to describe them clearly.

The “real thing” cannot be forced.  It comes to us when we are ready to receive it.  With actual experience comes greater understanding – and eventually, wisdom.

May we be open and ready for the world of Spirit!  May “Our Father who art in heaven” show us what He wants us to know, when He wants us to know it!  Amen.

Posted by: John | January 23, 2011

More Musings

Oh baby, let’s catch this thermal under that puffy little cloud. We’ll go as high as is allowed. We’ll feel so proud. The wind outside won’t be so loud.

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It’s better for me to be a non entity – That will keep the ego from coming out of me – No patches, pictures, books for anyone to see – Maybe then I can get to what’s really me – If that’s what I want to be.

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Firefly, firefly. I’m so glad to see you. With all the pesticides I thought there wouldn’t be you.

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I’d like to be under canopy.

    No one but me.

I’d be so free –

     What would I see?

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Our landscape is dotted with whineries and shrink tanks. We seek outside ourselves for answers to problems deep within ourselves. Our yellow pages offer so-called cures for our rages. Talking heads think they know it all, just who to blame for our fall. But I want to know:  Who does the software in the halls of Shambala?

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I’m looking for a place where there is no thought

     where there are no battles to be fought

     where the future is not bought

     where only the moment is caught. 

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As a man seeth himself, so shall he become.

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Every man has the right to seek and to grapple with his own truth. If this right is taken away, he loses his most valued freedom and responsibility – that of seeking his own truth himself.

 

Posted by: Jivani Lisa | January 9, 2011

Being vs. Doing

One of my yoga students commented last week that she can’t believe how quickly time is passing.  We’re already a week into the new year!  I agreed that time does indeed seem to fly.  We laughed in agreement about the old saying that time flies even more quickly as we age.

Then, she startled me with her next comment.  She said she’s always shocked at the end of the day when she turns the page of her calendar – shocked to realize that she accomplished nothing all day.

I think everyone in our culture can identify with this notion on some level.  Yet, I find it hard to believe that my student really accomplishes nothing in a day.  After all, she has two small children.  As a stay-at-home mom, I’m certain she works at least as hard caring for her children all day as anyone who works full-time outside the home.  She has allowed our cultural bias toward Doing vs. Being to define her sense of accomplishment.

The truth is that we are not required to DO anything in particular to have a “productive” day.  When we rise from bed in the morning, all that’s needed is a personal commitment to BE in the moment.  From this Being arises an awareness of what really needs to be done in each moment. 

Of course, we all have duties that are part of life.  We commit to fulfill our duties as spouse, parent, student, employee, etc.  We commit to take care of ourselves physically, mentally and spiritually each day.  These things require a certain amount of Doing.

Beyond this, we should rise above any compulsion to DO things, to check off our daily to-do lists.  There’s nothing wrong with just BEING.  Life is a gift.  When we accept ourselves as children of God, we can see that we are worthy and “productive” simply by being alive.

Our being becomes enlivened by the peace and love that we cultivate within ourselves – the peace and love that comes from God.  Then, our existence is a blessing to others and to the whole world.  And it doesn’t matter whether time seems to move quickly or slowly.

Posted by: John | January 1, 2011

Attitude

It occurred to me that “beatitude” (blessing) is a combination of “beautiful” and “attitude.”  In flying, the attitude of the aircraft around the three axes (pitch, roll, and yaw) is everything.  It’s true in life as well.  What is your attitude toward yourself, toward others, toward God?  If it’s beautiful, then all of life is a beatitude.

Posted by: John | December 28, 2010

Mouse Messiah

Fiction with a spiritual theme:

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Maurice mouse left the nest in the barn and scampered into the woods. He was always more contemplative than the other mice. There had to be more to life than just stealing feed from the chickens and watching out for the farmer’s cat. He quickly found a hole in a dead tree that allowed him a place to just sit and look. He took a deep breath. It was very quiet in the woods.

Maurice knew he couldn’t completely relax, but the feeling of relaxed awareness that came over him was better than anything he’d ever experienced. Even better than eating the cheese last week. 

He remembered one time he’d barely escaped the cat and made it into the nest behind the barn wall. The cat had torn off part of his tail. His wife Mary mouse was busy nursing the latest litter and didn’t notice him at first.  Maurice was shaking so much he woke the baby mice and made Mary angry.  Yet he found himself in a state of euphoria; he was so happy to be alive.

But today in this hole in the tree he was beginning to feel even better.  He wondered why life was such a cat and mouse game anyway. There seemed to be enough food to go around.

There were three other mouse nests in the walls of the old barn. Two were his brothers’ and the newest belonged to a cousin. He knew it wouldn’t be long before a group of mice would have to move elsewhere.  There were more nests in the farmer’s house.  Maurice’s other wives, Marsha and Marilyn, built two of them.  Maurice spent time there when making more mice. That’s where he had tasted the cheese, a taste he would never forget.

But right now, this hole in the tree was where Maurice wanted to be. He fell asleep and had a dream about a large mouse named Mickey.  Marsha and Marilyn had told him about Mickey whom they’d seen on television in the house while hiding under the sofa.  Maurice felt Mickey was urging him to reveal a higher purpose for all mice.

When he exited the hole in the tree, he left droppings so he could find his way back.  He listened to the promptings of his whiskers.  Finally, he had a purpose for his life, not just to make more mice. When he got back to his nest in the wall, he asked all the other males to meet him in an empty cardboard box by the back door of the barn. The box was high on a shelf behind some tools the farmer had forgotten. There was also no way the cat could get there. The mice had been using it for meetings for some time.

As the mice assembled, excitement filled the air. Questions abounded:  Were there too many nests, too many litters? Was some type of birth control imminent? When Maurice climbed up on the stone at the back of the box, all chattering ceased.  Most of the mice were related to Maurice in some way. Indeed he was the oldest mouse in the box and had many living offspring.

Maurice bounced and squealed about how he’d seen Mickey mouse that afternoon and felt compelled to spread the word about a higher purpose for mice.  Before he finished, the box echoed with squeals of, “Maurice! Maurice! Maurice!”

Myron and Monroe mouse, his brothers, ran up to Maurice after he finished speaking. They asked for more details of Maurice’s vision. Maybe a group of mice could get together and talk about these things when they weren’t busy looking for food, running from the cat, or making more mice. They could talk about jumping higher than thirteen inches or new ways to tease the cat. Caught up in the euphoria of the moment, Maurice agreed to these things.  He didn’t hear Marshal and Montrose mouse squealing in the background that mouse kind was just meant to survive as best they could and that there was a Mighty Mouse before Mickey.  Mice were not meant to have visions or meditate.

Maurice began to bask in his newfound fame. Marsha and Marilyn wanted to have more mice with him. Younger mice began to seek his advice on escaping the cat as well as making more mice. He found he needed more time in the hole in the dead tree. Maybe he did not have all the answers. Maybe  life was just a cat and mouse game.  Did this Mickey mouse really exist?  All he knew was what Marsha and Marilyn had told him. Was there a Mighty Mouse before Mickey?  The family had rearranged the living room in the house so there was no longer any way for a mouse to watch television.

Things progressed rapidly.  Myron and Monroe wrote up a history of mouse kind. Morgan and Manchester mouse, Maurice’s sons, wrote down mouse rules that Mickey had proclaimed to Maurice in the dream.

After a few weeks, Morgan and Manchester began to quibble.  Morgan believed mice were created first, before rats.  Manchester felt rats came first. Both had their followers who began to meet in nests at opposite ends of the barn wall.  Rhythmic squealing could be heard at times. This drove the cat crazy.  She ran from one end of the wall to the other meowing loudly and clawing the wall.

What Maurice didn’t know was that Marshal and Montrose were forming a mouse council to ban him from the nests in the barn. All Maurice wanted was peace.  He found himself spending more and more time alone in the hole in the dead tree.

As winter arrived, Maurice found the hole in the tree a safe and cozy place to rest and dream. He had fewer dreams and a feeling of foreboding overwhelmed him when snow swirled to the ground. He felt frightened because he couldn’t move around as quickly with snow on the ground.

One afternoon, he fell asleep in the tree and slept all night.  When he awoke, a thick layer of snow covered the ground. Maurice had to wait until it melted at midday before he could get back to his nest in the barn wall.  He feared the cat would be on the prowl.  Unbeknownst to him, while he slept, the mouse council had voted him out of the nests in the wall.

He felt relieved when he made it into the barn.  Sensing the cat behind him, he scurried for the hole in the wall.  As he arrived at the nest, he found it blocked.

“It’s me, Maurice,” he squealed.

“You’ve been banned from the nests in the wall,” Marshal screeched. 

At that instant, the cat pounced.  Maurice couldn’t escape this time; he died in the cat’s mouth. She spit Maurice’s corpse on the barn floor in front of the mouse hole – just like a football player spiking the ball after scoring a touchdown.  It was a warning to all mice that the cat still ruled.

After three generations, the mice in the barn wall still remember Maurice. The Mickey and the Mighty mouse denominations still minister to their flocks. The cat still frets when squeals of “Maurice! Maurice! Maurice!” sometimes pop out of the wall in the barn.

Posted by: John | December 25, 2010

Flying is Spiritual for Me

I’ve always thought of myself as spiritual in nature, although not religious. In my forty-plus years of flying, I’ve experienced moments that seemed to give me insight into something deeper than myself:  The sight of a glory – that round rainbow circling the perfect silhouette of my plane or glider – still amazes me, even though I now understand the reason why it appears; staying aloft in a glider – even though I know how to do so – takes me so close to nature I feel part of it.

The ancients gave the gods credit for things they themselves couldn’t explain. As I try to find solace between my thoughts when I meditate, I’m told I’m searching for God. My concept of God has evolved to a subjective, all-encompassing Maker:  The Maker of the universe with all its galaxies as well as the Maker of the glory I see from my cockpit. Am I not just doing the same as the ancients?

I’ve heard that spiritual experiences should change one’s life in some way; I’ve always considered myself as a seeker. As such, my life is always changing. I feel this is the way things should be for me. Is this some sort of self-deception? Am I just rationalizing the glories and the glider flights? I only know how I feel inside.

On more than one occasion while waiting for the tow plane to take the slack out of the rope to pull my glider on our grass strip, I’ve noticed butterflies flying in formation and drawing nectar from the plants. I know I’m a small part of everything – like the butterflies – when the tow plane starts to take off, pulling me into the blue sky. I feel warm inside, a part of the universal whole. Is this a spiritual experience? Who’s to say?

Each flight in an airplane or glider is different in some way. I believe that flying should be approached with an aura of relaxed awareness. This involves intuition which comes from experience (not from books). We must be present in the moment when we’re flying, but it’s just as important to be aware of where we’re going. The focus demanded in flying is much like that demanded in meditation.

Prayer and meditation are the supporting poles of a spiritual life. Because I see similarities between flying and meditation, does that make flying spiritual for me? I wonder if it’s even worth discussing. My meditation has always been private for me, and my flying, since I now have fewer students, is becoming more private as well. 

For now, I think I’ll be content to maintain my own ideas of what is spiritual for me. As long as pastel, sunset, cirrus clouds highlighted by a full moonrise still take my breath away when I’m at three thousand feet, I will consider my flying to be a spiritual experience.

Posted by: John | December 22, 2010

Spiritual Check Lists

The human mind is not infallible. For that reason, check lists are used in flying to prevent the omission of something important. Lists are printed out and the hard copy stays in the aircraft. Often, an acronym is recited as a memory aid. CIFFTRS comes to mind:

C – controls free and correct

I – flight instruments set

F – fuel on proper tank; and fuel pump on

F – flaps set for take-off

T – trim set for take-off

R – run-up

S – seat belts on and doors shut

I wondered about a possible spiritual check list.  GRACE is good:

G – God.  Are you ready for communication with God?

R – relax.  Let all your tension dissolve.

A – attitude.  Are you peaceful rather than angry; trusting rather than afraid? 

C – compassion.  Share love for all people and all of God’s creation.

E – empathy.  Remain aware of the trials other people endure.  All life is interconnected.

Posted by: John | December 17, 2010

Meditation on Competition

I’ve wondered about the spirit of competition in the Western world.  It’s supposed to be healthy, but is it?  When I was a runner, I was never competitive.  I just ran for the health of it.  If anything, I competed against myself.  Competition is what has supposedly made our Western culture so successful.  But how do we define success?

Since I’ve been meditating and going inside myself, I question competition as a virtue.  My inhale certainly doesn’t compete with my exhale. 

Yet, I thought about how, when I was first beginning to meditate,  I tried to do my meditation for twenty minutes.  A goal of twenty minutes.  Can that not be called competition? 

Perhaps a better word is discipline.  In our spiritual practice, discipline is a virtue, but competition – even with ourselves – is a vice.

Posted by: Jivani Lisa | December 12, 2010

Peace on Earth

Some of the most popular prayers from people of all faiths are for “peace on Earth” and for “an end to war.”  Do we ever stop to wonder what it would take for those prayers to be answered?

It often seems the world is filled with so much anger, hatred, envy and violence.  These things appear to be overwhelming.  They make us feel powerless.  We can’t help but wonder where to begin to overcome them.

The answer is:  Inside our own heart.

Ahimsa means non-violence.  It’s a central teaching in Eastern religions.  Acts of violence are always preceded by angry, hateful or violent thoughts, and sometimes by hateful words.  We tend to notice this more in other people or in large-scale confrontations between communities and nations.  However, if we’re honest with ourselves, we must admit the same thing happens within ourselves.  Our task is to learn to see and change our own angry thoughts before they have a chance to become hateful words or violent actions.

The opposite of ahimsa is peace and true compassion for all life.  This is something that can and should be actively cultivated.  The best place to begin practicing ahimsa is with ourselves:  How are we angry, cruel and judgmental with ourselves?  When we learn to see this, we begin to see how we direct this negative energy outward toward others.

Compassion is a choice.  When each one of us consciously chooses to be peaceful and compassionate in our thoughts, words and deeds – even when this choice is very difficult – then we will indeed have peace on earth. Peace happens one person at a time.

May there be peace within you!  May there be peace on earth and an end to war.

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